PERFECTLY, perfectly YOU!
I am a follower of the show BOTCHED. It is amazing, not just the skill of the two surgeons depicted, but also the dysmorphia of the clients who want to be changed.
I know the issue of unreliable body image all too well. It doesn't take much in your childhood to have your image of yourself changed forever. Mine was a mother from a fat family who determined early on she was going to be rake thin, and so was I. She measured everything. She was a great baker but you were rationed, and she checked to make sure a slice of cake lasted DAYS!
When I was little I suffered from food intolerance, and IBS. This kept me thin, which I guess fitted well with her image of what children should look like - her children. As I got older and took control of my eating, she would say things like "It's time you started running again - you're getting pudgy>" If you know me you will know I have rarely been pudgy, BUT, these comments have left me with the feeling that I am fat, even when the scale and size 8 trousers indicate I definitely am not.
Yoga at the scale I did it meant that I had to eat regularly throughout the day. The problem then was that I had trouble keeping weight on. Teaching at least 20 classes a week, plus looking after home and family will do that to you. My son used to say as he cuddled me "Mum, you are just too thin.." But it didn't look that way to me, and still doesn't, but now I have a pattern of eating established and trust my clothing size, much more than what I see when I look in the mirror!
I know the issue of unreliable body image all too well. It doesn't take much in your childhood to have your image of yourself changed forever. Mine was a mother from a fat family who determined early on she was going to be rake thin, and so was I. She measured everything. She was a great baker but you were rationed, and she checked to make sure a slice of cake lasted DAYS!
When I was little I suffered from food intolerance, and IBS. This kept me thin, which I guess fitted well with her image of what children should look like - her children. As I got older and took control of my eating, she would say things like "It's time you started running again - you're getting pudgy>" If you know me you will know I have rarely been pudgy, BUT, these comments have left me with the feeling that I am fat, even when the scale and size 8 trousers indicate I definitely am not.
Yoga at the scale I did it meant that I had to eat regularly throughout the day. The problem then was that I had trouble keeping weight on. Teaching at least 20 classes a week, plus looking after home and family will do that to you. My son used to say as he cuddled me "Mum, you are just too thin.." But it didn't look that way to me, and still doesn't, but now I have a pattern of eating established and trust my clothing size, much more than what I see when I look in the mirror!
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| Trying my hand at a full length selfie in a gorgeous full length mirror at the offices of "The Collective" in Sydney |
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| This was taken in the garden at The Bentinck in Woodend |
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